The Spoonykipper Story

Everytime I think I'm doing better or I have a few good days the bad days come back with a vengeance. I can see why Christmas is as much the worset time of year for people as it is good, it's not like I ever got to spent it with my Ex as much as I wanted to (in a way I'm glad it's not tainted with a memory) but at least she was there in a way. Now it just looks that much worse with people being all happy and being with the people they love/care about etc. My parents will have each other and my brother will have his girlfriend and I have nothing....Oh I have my family yes as people like to point out but it's not the same as having someone you care about being with you.

Talking to people they have said about maybe doing volunteer or something to make me feel better, that or counseling due to this not only being the festive season but also the suicide season and I be lying if I said I hadn't come close to it....But I'm going to see if I can do this on my own first with some help from friends before resulting to counseling and/or "happy pills".

Other News

I had a works Christmas party on the 4th. Start of the night was a bit meh but got better at the end as spent it dancing about till 1am and I have piccys to show you of that! I passed my driving theory test on the 9th YAY! My driving test is set around the end of Jan.

I really need to a do a piccy/video update on here as I always say I have some to show you all, maybe when I get home from work.

Well I've been talking to my friend Shury(or mew) about scary films and such and she has been bugging me for awhile to watch some. I'd say I don't mind most films but psychological horror films really...just mess with my head >.< and having a vivid imagination it normally means I will be having a hard time sleeping for awhile etc.

Shury came up with this list of films I should watch: Paranormal Activity and The Grudge films also after watching those to then play the Wii game of The Grudge and film myself. I finally gave in and watch Paranormal Activity, the film reminded me in part of the Blair Witch (that kept me up) and they did have some eerie moments mainly at night. But overall I spent most of the film thinking why are they doing this and are they going to call said "demon expert"? But no they didn't call him and yes they did stupid things and oh look....your dead now...wow. I'd say it had it's moment but meh I'd I've done things a hell of a lot differently.

After that I moved on the The Grudge (US remake)I think this was just hyped up a lot by watching clips on youtube and Shury saying about the film. It was an OK film (had one "why?" moment when the detective went to go burn the house down but before he get's started goes to find out what that sound is?? An get's killed) but also being a US remake they killed most of the horror things the original film had. I then moved on to play the Wii game and I wasn't looking forward to it to walk around the house from The Grudge or some empty warehouse etc with just a flashlight and.....er yeah just a flashlight, I set my webcam up to record and played the game for the first time! I'd say I made it through the game fine ^^ not like some of the people you see on Youtube screaming like girls and when I can get the film uploaded I'll show you all. I've since got hold of the original film of The Grudge and The grudge 2&3 so I'll be watching those soon and hopefully wont be jibbering in the corner after